A river runs through it… the beach I mean

So after dashing my dreams and completely ruining my chance at major motion picture stardom by bulldozering over our hard-earned beach trench with which we were attempting to free the festering little pond — The State park service brought their heavy equipment back out- to the VERY spot we had created our trench and they had filled it in….and this time they…..gasp…. dug a trench.  I was happy to see on my way home that the dirty little creek that runs along the shore is now a dirty little damp but empty creek bed, the water under the bridge is waaay lower and beach access is greatly improved for all Rio Del Mar resident… hip hip hoooray!   In a brighter world those cheers would be for me rather then from me and they would have taken place like a month ago…. but nooo, they needed to dig their own trench just to steal the glory from us.  What? Me? Bitter?..of course not….

the secret is out

im not sure exactly why i am posting? nothing even remotley interesting has occured today.its rainy like tropical storm news reporters using boats in the street kind of rainy…ive spent the day working on some cardio health articles so if any one would like to discuss angina? you know i have that coverd also the”secret” is now on the cover of newsweek? sales of the book and dvd are in the millions and its been out a matter of weeks?i havent seen or read it but everyone i know has some connection to this seemingly viral self help phenomenom? im tempted to make fun of it but, i havent seen it so i wont. well i think its time to slicker it up and go out for pm coffee yeah its a rainy pm coffee kind of day.

Darker sides

I realized today that I haven’t been to the beach since the “incident” last Monday. As odd as it sounds, I think I may be holding a grudge against the Pacific. I mean, I still love it… but I think it may take me some time to get over what it did to Steven. The dichotomey of a beautiful, lulling, rythmic sea, which has always made me feel simulatously grounded and freespirited, like an old friend- with the unrelenting and remorseless beast that so mercilessly ravished a human being before my eyes has left me a little….untrusting. I’m sure I’ll get over it, but it’s kind of like seeing a dark side to someone you thought you knew. It reminds me a little of when my students get arrested over the weekend for beating people up, I always have such a hard time believing that my sweet wonderful kids have such a dark side to them.

A weird yoga guru recently told me that in life we are asked only to witness “What Is” and find peace with it- he’s usually pretty out there but I think he was on to something with that one.

BEST THING EVER!!!!!!!!!!

k….i feel waaaay better today im out of bed and walking upright. i think i want to take a minute to say that steven ray’s trip to tj with his father in law is the best thing ever! it really makes me happy to think about it and puts a smile on my face as im sure it does for all of his friends and family imagining them there together and steves updates have been great…. and its just truly one of my favorite situations of all time…..for some reason when i was sick i looked at a lot of field and stream type sites online and am left with a strong desire to learn to shoot a gun and also to go fishing. im hoping schyler can help me out with a shooting trip when im in bend next? maybe there should be a boys fishing trip? i dunno maybe i just miss everyone and still have traces of fever? happy friday to everyone enjoy your time!

Last one Standing

It seems I am the only one who has not succumb to this evil sickness. I can’t help but think that my super-flu of last year has left me with a super-charged immune system this year. All around me I hear echos of hacking coughs and noses being blown. I wake up each morning with a sore throat and cough… a dose of airborne has thus far kept the worse of the sickness at bay. I can’t say how long I can hold out. I’ve become afraid to touch anything in my own home… the germs….my god…the germs…..